earthspirit1
earthspirit1
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(1)used to pole dance in a rock bar. Under the name ‘Star’.(no not strip lol)
(2)I have sat in a mud hut and shared supper with the african family whio lived there
(3)I have a natural gift for the tarot and am psychic
(4)I’m drawn to people who are artistic, smart, creative, dynamic, and who have extensive vocabularies
(5)I hate the idea of being caged in – in actuality or metaphorically
(6)I can not hold my grog. I know this only from third-party, anecdotal evidence.
(7)I always sleep with at least a sheet over me. I think it’s a security thing
(8)I love mind warping experiences that challange the conventions of what i think is real
(9)-I gravitate towards all things gothic.
(10)-I can not hold my grog. I know this only from third-party, anecdotal evidence.
(11)-I am not a feminist. i believe in being different..especially if it is about being feminine .
(12)-I am a bit of a tree hugging hippy dirt worshipper ;)
(13)-If i always followed my conscience I would be perfect
(14)-I’m drawn to people who are artistic, smart, creative, dynamic, and who have extensive vocabularies
(15)-I hate the idea of being caged in – in actuality or metaphorically
(16)-I enjoy discussions about religion and faith, so long as all parties involved respect the others’ beliefs or lack thereof.
(17)-I have an inexplicable proclivity for all things purple,ancient, natural and gothic
(18)-I have had acceptance from a publisher, based on a chapter I sent them. that was 3 years ago. still got writers block in that area.
All offers to cure writers block will be accepted
(19)-Integrity and personal responsibility are driving forces in my life.
(20)-I love mind warping experiences that challange the conventions of what i think is real
(21)-I have no regrets in my life.Its all experience isnt it?
(22)-I have traveled extensively
(23)-I wish I could share the girft of holistic and conscious thinking to all
(24)-I share ..the obsessive cleaning habits of ‘monica’ from friends…
(25)-my book collection would disturb others muhahahahah
I like to think of myself as having the same amount of sides as an orange! That is cyclical, no sides, just a flow of facets all inter- connected to one another. All of these selves within us combine to make me who I am. I have however a brilliant badge that says ‘Dont make me go to my darkside’ and it sums me up very well. (overlooking the term ‘side’ for the humour lol)..
I am light and I am dark. And Its experiences, life events, people that ‘bring out’ certain facets of myself. I have the responsible self, and the carefree one, the introverted quiet self and the extroverted expressive self . I am strong, I am vulnerable. I laugh hard and I sob like a child. I am ‘grownup’ mum of three tiny little girls, yet I still possess the childlike spirit (I still have rock posters on my bedroom wall) I am very academic but I can not do maths!
I have a c-section scar on my pubic bone..and I also have 3 tattoos….so even my body demonstrates this union of my many facets. None of the selves are better or worse than others…although I often judge them so. I learned this years ago when I studied to become a psychologist…BUT I believed it to be true in regard to ME just in the last few weeks.
A running theme of late in my life and in those around me , is the struggle with integrating those facets/selves that clash. And one recurrent issue is our ‘past selves’ with ‘who we are at present’. I know so many mums who worry ’where is the girl I used to be’. How many of us have been reminded by a song, or by meeting an old friend, of a part of themselves that they forgot about? Of felt sad at ‘things we used to do’.Maybe we feel our life now doesnt allow for the freedom of the past, or the pursuit of a hobby once enjoyed due to the demands of parenthood, or for those of us who are not parents-due to feeling that it is no longer ‘age/stage appropriate’. And when a persons different ‘parts’ clash, it can cause huge conflict. An example would be when I became a mummy. My inner child screamed at the responsibile parent in me for years. Huge clash. One example being that I no longer throw myself out of aeroplanes as I figure my kids need their mummy alive, but the adrenalin still pumps through me and I do miss this terribly. I definately havent changed, im still an adrenalin junkie, but its the expression of this adrenalin that has had to change..and I am working on a safer way of expression! The day that I realised this, that I hadnt fundamentally changed, only how I expressed certain interests had changed, was the day I stopped feeling this particular inner-child/parental responsibility clash! It was a huge weight of my shoulders.
We live in a society obssessed with life- stage appropriateness. ‘you are at this stage of your life now so you should be doing this or that”…..I adore and respect what I call ‘old hippies’. I use this term with pure affection. (my mum is one )..I love to see a biker in his late 70′s still with his bike and long hair, or parents raising their kids true to their own lifestyle. I had a lovely friend once, who had a total transformation when her kids came along, dropped all her hobbies, her tarot, her art, even changed her appearance to become what she thought the rolemodel mum should become. She lost herself and everybody. Her kids will never know their real mum. At the whitesnake concert a few weeks ago, there were thousands of women fans, original fans, and remember whitesnake came out in the late 70′s. There was a sea of women no longer in their teens,20′s or 30′s.. but dressed as they would have done at the original whitesnake concerts. Cowboy boots, short skirts, leathers, and they all looked fantastic! I am sure many a husband that night saw a spark in their women that they hadnt seen in a long time. It really resided with me. I also wonder how many of those women had had doubts about wearing what they wore, or felt a bit of sadness that they couldnt go back 20 years. But when they got to the gig this was all forgotton! Why does society do this to us? It is surely very cruel. When none of us fundamentally ever change, or lose our interests. I am the exact same person now that i was 10 years ago, albeit I have alot more life experiences, and am a mum now, but what gave me shivers ‘then’ gives me shivers still ‘now’. I still like the same crisp flavour, get a hot flush to the same rock gods., I still have the same literature and movie interests…actually the only thing that has really changed is my inability to drink copious amounts of alcohal..and my tolerance of children is alot higher(i thought they were aliens b4 I had my own lol).
I am fascinated with the human identiy, and I admit that i often struggle with integrating the various parts of mine to a level I am comfortable with. ..and I think alot of people are like me in that respect…..While I dont think i suppress any of my facets, like the friend i mentioned did, I often pay more attention to some than others, resulting in a longing for the others. As I said, when I was ill there for the past few mths with glandualr fever, I spent alot of time focusing on me, who I am , and while I know deep down I have not lost the childlike abilities to laugh at myself and life…….i havent done so in a while. I made a decision about a mth ago to look at the various roles in my life, mummy, girlfriend, friend, daughter, and to look at the various facets of myself, and to make sure I allocate time for each of them, so one doesnt take priority over another one, giving me that awful sense of longing I have been feeling for too long. I am realising that by embracing and accepting each facet of me, I can maybe integrate them more successfully. It is also too easy to ridicule the more childlike aspect of ourself, instead it must become a valued part. I need to no longer feel pulled in different directions, and I no longer will deny any part of myself.
I live in Causeway Coast. Mummy to 3 gorgeous little girls.Enya Skye and Abi Spirit & freyja Astarte 1 mth old! Devoted ♥ to Mark my life partner.Both Tree Hugging Hippies
Nature Based Faith(Pagan/Druid-like)
I am a Chartered Psychologist & Clinical Hypnotherapist. Also trained in many Holistic Therapies.
Total rockchick
Mad about photography
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