makingredwishes
makingredwishes
| Forum role | Member since | Last activity | Topics created | Replies created |
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| Member | Dec 19, 2011 (14 years) |
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I've decided to open my blinds to some of you. I had the perfect marriage. Happy, loving, faithful, kids, house, Jobs, you name it. I had it all, 'the big picture', the 'American Dream'. My husband started hanging out with friends from his childhood. They started a band. The band lead to drinking, a huge addiction to pain pills, lying, stealing, DUI's and leaving us. I for nearly two years didn't give up on him. I forgave him time and time again. I put him through rehab. We went to counseling. Finally he stopped coming home. I kept hoping he'd wake up. Remember us. Need me. Instead he grew further and further apart from me. His company that he owned went under. I didn't divorce him. I loved him too much. He'd wake up right? I waited almost two years. I was lonely. I met a man. A married man. We talked for a very long time before even meeting. I grew to love this man. We were both so broken in our marriages. We spent hours talking, crying, sharing, loving and yes, growing very close. Before long we were having a full blown affair. I think the year we spent just talking put us at a level I've never experienced with a man, not even my husband. Our affair was brought to the attention of my affair partner's wife because he told her everything in the middle of a fight. The affair came to an erupt end. I was devastated. Its hard to fix a marriage (that you care very much about) when you are heartbroken and devastated on the inside from losing a man you can't have. Thing is I can't just walk away. I can't say goodbye, a huge part of me would be lost.
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