undesirablelikeme
undesirablelikeme
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Bio
~waves, smiling~
Self-harm, drug addiction and mental health have carried a stigma for years. It is slowly changing, but not fast enough for those who have fallen through the cracks.
This journal is mainly for me. However, it is also for those of you struggling with a mental health issue, addiction, abandonment issues, abuse of any kind - whatever it is that your demon is.
My story is not your story, but certain things will ALWAYS parallel - which I find quite fascinating. Human psychology is ALWAYS fascinating. The more we learn about others, the more we learn about ourselves.
Where once people like myself hid away in a dark corner. Hiding away like a dirty little secret. Now we wish to connect with others that have the same issues via way of this nifty thing called the internet. The world is so small these days, we are no longer truly *alone*.
For me, reading the blogs/journals/stories of those like myself is an attempt to understand who and what I am. Understand my nature, my thoughts and those weird annoying things they called "emotions".
With connection comes understanding...
Learning...
And most importantly, GROWING.
We hope that our stories will save a life.
Stop someone from using drugs.
Help someone when they are lost in their own dark tunnel with no way out.
Most of all, we wish for people to simply 'understand' us.
Why we are the way that we are.
How difficult life can be when you are struggling with some of these things.
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I am an INFP. A Sagittarius.
[If you believe any of this codswollop. I do kinda-sorta, hence my mentioning it. Not as much as I did when younger mind you. Age makes you question one's beliefs.]
I am nearly 40. I have "been there and done that" with most things. (Wannabe writer/illustrator.)
I am STILL struggling with depression, childhood abandonment issues, drug addiction and gee only knows what else.
I am an ex-cutter. Self-harm. I started at just 8 years old, stopped at 22. Have not cut since. My "tribal marks" remain as a reminder of those difficult days.
I am an ex-heroin addict. I was 15 years old when I had my first taste. I am completely clean - 14-15 years now. I don't drink or take any illegal drugs. I do smoke tobacco cigarettes and drink too much coffee but honestly, that is the least of my problems. ~laughs~
My long walls of text can be taken as a cautionary tale.
You might learn something new if you drop by.
Maybe that light bulb of understanding will finally "click" if you do not understand, or are trying to, for the sake of someone that you love.
I will always be brutally honest. No candy coating here.
Most of all I hope that you will take something away from these words, my story. What..? I'm not sure, hopefully there is SOMETHING to be taken away from my long walls of text.
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Questions are encourage.
Happy to start a dialogue with anyone that is truly curious. Or just wants to talk.
And with that, I'm off.
I hope that your day/night is a pleasant one.
Ashe
nb. Any hand-drawn art is my own unless otherwise stated.
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