recoveryallthewayaround
recoveryallthewayaround
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| Member | Feb 20, 2015 (11 years) |
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I am 45 years old/young, however you want to look at it, however, it wasn't until recently that I began to life on my own terms. Up until that point, i just sat back and allowed circumstances in my life to dictate everything, instead of taking charge and dictating my own future. As I sat with a gun to my head, it occurred to me that, "I didn't want to die, I just had no idea how to live. I put that gun down and drove immediately to a mental health hospital, where my journey back to life began. I am not a certified therapist or anything like that, but I feel I have something better EXPERIENCE! Don't get me wrong I could not of done it without my great therapist, but living it goes along way. I went from a life of despair to a life full of hope and joy. Was it EASY hell no, did I want to quit when it got HARD hell yes, but something kept me going. I not sure what that something was, but I am grateful for it. Now that I have gone through it, I feel a responsibility to share my process with others who may be feeling as I did for most of my life. Sexual abuse took me to that dark place, but I was amazed at ALL the areas of my life it affected. So not only did I have to deal with the abused, I also had to deal with all the ways I tried, unsuccessfully, to deal with it. Some examples are pretty obvious alcohol/drug abuse self esteem, self worth, etc., the list goes on. I actually found that the abuse itself was easier to deal with than all the harmful behaviors I did to myself and others trying to hide from it. The abuse wasn't my fault, but my actions because of it, I had to take responsibility for and that was difficult. In this blog I will share with you the whole, raw, honest truth from my daily journals. The writings that saved my life, I hope can help someone else going through some of the same issues as I did. I do WISH I would of had someone's journals before I started my process, than I would of known I WASN'T CRAZY for feeling and thinking the way I was. Remember we don't have to do everything alone, join in the healing process.
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